Month: July 2016

By Michael Price Nelson
Guest Blog

In this post, Michael Price Nelson reflects on his friend and colleague, Joel Workin, and on this year’s Workin Scholar Christephor Gilbert’s essay on grace.

Grace.  As Lutherans, we talk about it, read about it, and some even preach about it.  It’s such a part of our theology that I wonder if we really pay attention to it the way we ought to.

Thirty years ago this week, I first met Joel Workin at a Lutherans Concerned meeting at St. Matthew’s Lutheran Church in North Hollywood.  While many of the faces there were new to me, Joel stood out – not least of all because of his 6’4” frame. Joel was immersed in his internship at a church in LA, and like most seminarians I’ve known, he radiated with an eagerness and joy about being something greater than himself, about living into his “call” of Christ in his life.

Less than 18 months later, however, after being certified for call by Pacific Lutheran Theological Seminary, two church officials summoned him to Los Angeles, along with Jim Lancaster and Jeff Johnson.  In that meeting, the three were presented with a  document outlining how they were to behave as openly gay candidates.  Jim had prepared a list of specific questions: “Are we allowed to touch? Can we hold hands? What about kissing?”  At this point, he was stopped by his inquisitors and told, “Look, we don’t know how to define it. We just know we don’t want you to do it.”

“Don’t you call unclean what I call clean.”  

This was a favorite passage of Joel’s from the story of Cornelius. I can remember him preaching on this as he struggled with his own sense of call in the face of the ELCA’s “no” to God’s “yes” in his life. In the end, Joel was never ordained.   Instead, he made a loving home with his husband Paul Jenkins and channeled his own sense of ministry into service for AIDS Healthcare Foundation, helping to establish the country’s first free standing AIDS hospice.  He also served as newsletter editor for the local Lutherans Concerned chapter and wrote many essays about LGBTQ people in the church, which are the basis for his posthumous book “Dear God, I’m Gay. Thank You!”

In the years since he passed away, I’ve often struggled with how to make sense of all that happened to Joel. With his friends, I helped establish the Workin Scholarship in the hopes that would make sense. But on a deeper personal level, I’ve still wondered how anyone could go on once a calling is stolen from you because of who God made you to be. How do you go on? How does anyone go on after being rejected by family and friends for being LGBT?  How does anyone go on after losing a job because of sexual identity? And why, why would you even want to?

Then I read this line, written by this year’s Workin Scholar, Chistephor Gilbert, in his beautifully crafted essay on grace: “And in the dark falling, in the everlasting emptiness, the grace is there saying, Get up and follow me.”

Even though I’m an every-Sunday-Lutheran, I need to be reminded of this, to have grace presented to me in new images, to re-engage me with its true nature. Christephor Gilbert’s essay has done that for me.  He challenges me – and I hope all of you – to look anew at what Joel called “grace unbounded.”

You can read Christephor Gilbert’s essay here – 2016 Workin Scholar Essay. And you can learn more about Joel and the Workin Scholar program here.

Michael Price Nelson serves as chair of the Joel R. Workin Scholarship Committee. He was a colleague and friend of Joel’s and was the editor of both editions of “Dear God I’m Gay. Thank you!” Michael and his husband, Dale von Seggern, are members of St. Paul’s Lutheran Church in Santa Monica, CA.  

Guest blog by Larell Fineren, ELM Synod Assembly Display Coordinator

When Ministry Engagement Convener Margaret Moreland called to ask me about volunteering to coordinate for the Table Display Hosts and Hostesses I imagined a bevy of Vanna Whites seductively pointing to various Tupperware items on kitchen tables across America.  Err…no…She meant hosts and hostesses for those myriad information tables that decorate the way to the Cookie Table at Synod Assemblies.  “Oh, that kind of host,” I said, feeling somewhat deflated.  But being a good queer Lutheran, I quickly said yes and resolved to make it a success.  

We managed to surface seven volunteers for the job.  Diane Linden-Johnson at Rocky Mountain, Lois Voss at Minneapolis, Jerry Vagts at St Paul, Terry Krueger at Metro NY, Michael Nelson at Southwest CA, Bob Goldstein at Metro Chicago,  the diversity team in Southeast Michigan, and me, Larell Fineren at Sierra Pacific, all rose to the hosting challenge.  My job also included making sure the supply boxes made it from Assembly to Assembly between our first one on April 28th and the last one on June 11th.  

We all reported good “table exposure” (no closets for us anymore!) which meant many visitors stopped by to talk and get resources.  In general, we felt about 50% of our visitors were well aware of ELM and Proclaim.  The other 50% got an earful when they stopped long enough to chat!  I talked to two young LGBTQ folks who felt called to ministry and wanted to go to seminary.  I was able to talk to them about our Candidacy Accompaniment program, of which they were unaware.  Other hosts also reported talking to potential ministry candidates.  Surprisingly, one host talked to two seminarians who didn’t know about ELM!  That was a shocker to me.  I imagined I was there mainly for the straight folks, to pitch our Ministry Engagement program.  But it made me realize how important it is to continue to get our message out there to EVERYONE—over and over again.  

One funny thing was how our clearly marked “Display copy only” booklets of Treasure in Clay Jars  and Enrich & Transform were slyly taken when we either weren’t at the table, or weren’t looking.  It was a bummer to have our materials disappear before others could see them.  But the Spirit blows where and how She wants–I had to assume they went where they needed to go.  

We all felt that hosting was enjoyable, worthwhile, and something we’d do again.  Would you like to host a table at your Assembly next year?  We’d like to at least double the number of Assemblies we’re represented at next year.  If you’d like to give it a go (and store some treasure in Heaven), please contact ELM Operations Coordinator Christephor (operations@elm.org) and let him know.

By Larell Fineren. Larell lives in Petaluma CA and attends Elim Lutheran Church.  She’s a member of the Sierra Pacific Synod Council, where she happily provides a queer perspective on issues.